Lost

Cold was the light of the stars

As the bitter winds whipped through the open fields

I was a lone tree on an empty moor

Exposed to the wickedness of the dark

 

I said that I knew the way back

I said that I knew better

My proud heart had poisoned my well of trust

And now I drank its bitter gall

 

Fear stalked me as I walked

Its foul breath on the back of my neck

Its tendrils reached out to grab me

To squeeze and shake me like a rag doll

 

My hands shook as I typed the number

I did not know if it was the cold or the terror

It rang once and then twice

Each ring feeling like an eternity

 

“Hello?”

I choked back the lump in my throat

And the pride in my heart

And I asked for help

 

“Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.” Psalm 30:2

The Storm Inside

The storm whipped up around me

Swirling up bitter winds and biting rains

As I shivered in its centre

A fiercer storm awoke in me

 

It accelerated far quicker than the outer

Gathering angry, black clouds

Staining the blue skies of my heart

Like charcoal on a white dress

 

Fear began to build in the atmosphere

And let rip with large roars of thunder

Discharging panic through me

Like lightning rippling through the frantic air

 

Through it all You waited

Waited for me to trust You

As my worries like a whisk

Kept my inner storm spinning

 

I cried out and thunder stopped to listen

The lightning froze in its path

I won’t carry this burden any more

I won’t let what I can’t control steal my peace

 

The winds began to drop

Calm descended from above

As You dealt with the storm outside

Inside I could see the blue skies

Shining through again

 

Tomorrow

It looms ominously

A black cloud on the horizon

Silently it sweeps across the sky

Until there is no more light

Just a sheet of darkness and dread

 

You can’t look beyond it

The insurmountable mountain

The future only brings fear

Stress is a filthy rat

Gnawing at the knot of your heart

Like a stone your stomach drops to the depths

 

Whatever awaits you

When the sun rises up again

Whatever you fear

Know that you are never alone

 

“…I will never leave you nor forsake you.” Joshua 1:5 (NIV)

Secrets

We hide them away

In the recesses of our heart

Out of sight

Out of mind

 

But we don’t realise

That in the darkness they grow

Grow to dominate our thinking

And shape our identity

 

They bubble to the surface

In any moment of weakness

We try to keep them submerged

But their ripples distort everything we see

 

Let go

Of the need to hide

Of the fear of rejection

Take back control of your life

 

We let go

And the wounds of our past

Heal up into scars

And we can move on

Guardian of Peace

Fear is the thief
Outside the heart’s door
Waiting patiently for a chance
To force his way in

A thought of worry
Flickers through your mind
You let it settle
Allow its whisper to linger
The smallest crack appears in the door
Fear smashes his way in

He ransacks the place
Taking your confidence, your dare, your initiative
He packs your hopes and dreams into his bag
He strips everything he can
Doing whatever he can to halt your progress

Your path becomes clouded
As plumes of worry sweep over
So much uncertainty
So much that could go wrong
You turn back from the opportunity


Fear is the thief
Outside the heart’s door
Waiting patiently for a chance
To force his way in

A thought of worry
Flickers through your mind
You stand firm
You focus on the promises of God
Drawing strength like water from a well
You won’t let Fear have his way

Peace stands guard
At the door of your heart
Filling you with calmness
Keeping Fear at a distance
Enabling you to step forward
And seize the moment

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7 (NIV)

Sheep Pen

The barriers of fear are like a sheep pen
They limit your progress
And keep you trapped
They contain your influence
And curtail your experience
It keeps you eating the same old mundane grass
When God has endless new pastures for you
It teaches you to take comfort in numbers
When God has called you to walk new paths
Fear says you will never be hurt
If you follow its rules
If you stay within its walls
But it will shear off your individuality, starve your ambition and cripple your dreams
It will stop you from getting the best God has for you
And it will stop the world from getting the best of you
Jesus is the shepherd
And He has opened the pen gate
Walk out, break free and live the life God has for you

Fear

Concealed in the mist Fear waits
Looking for any ship that dares to leave the island
Its tattered black flags flutter
The skull and crossbones embossed on them
The creaking wood of its bow echoes in the silence
As it waits for its victims

Ships veer widely at the sight of it
Consumed by panic at this deathly ship
As they swing round to retreat
It is only then that Fear moves in
Gliding through the waters like a ghost
Heading for them at breakneck speed
Though its sails hang limply on its mast

But it never attacks
Not once has it fired its black cannons
The ships, in their wild frenzy, are driven into the rocks
And sink into the depths
And Fear drifts quietly back to its outpost

But sail straight towards it
Holding your course as the ship bears down on you
And suddenly it will begin to turn
As it sees that you have not turned back
Disappearing into the swirling mist
Never to be seen again