Grounded

I sink my feet in

Into the cement of Your Word

It wraps around my legs

I am locked into its grip

 

The earth quakes beneath

The four winds of uncertainty

Strike me from every side

But I am not moved

 

Economies fail and empires fall

Predictions miss their mark

The unthinkable becomes reality

But nothing can shake Your Word

 

For every challenge

I have a promise

I have a truth for every lie

I have a hope which is anchored in heaven

Fuel Station

Switch off the sat nav

We know better

Next left for our desires

And follow the highway to destruction

 

The warning signs flash

Crying for us to make a U-turn

But we turn it to mute

And we shut out the small, still voice

 

We do stop at the fuel station

For our weekly top up

But we invest as little as we can

A token gesture to ease our conscience

 

The car judders to a halt

As the engine begins to break down

We finally break our silence

And we call out to God

 

As He draws near to the window

We quickly lock the door

Though there is tenderness in His eyes

Our grip tightens on the wheel

 

We beg Him to mend us

To get our lives running again

We cry out about our problems

But we know the problem is really us

 

The fuel tank is empty

The engine ruined

No more pretending now

It is time to give up the wheel

Rainy Skies

Dark clouds in the sky

No hope for sunshine

Another dark season passing through

To what will I cling to now?

 

Downpour after downpour has come

My dreams were washed away

The cold slap of teardrops on my cheeks

Compound the disappointment within me

 

Harsh winds don’t relent

Scattering my well laid plans

They give wings to cruel whispers

And they chase me on my lonely walk

 

I choose to open my heart to You God

Not to give into the whispers of despair

Though I cannot see past the clouds

I know that this will end

 

The cold rain lands in my heart

Sinking deep in the soil of my soul

When the skies clear and the sun returns

It births something new in me

Emptiness

Why this emptiness in my life?

Why has the light

All of a sudden, gone out?

My voice echoes in the vastness

The ghost of loneliness

Brushing past my skin

Aimless I feel I am wandering

When my path was once so sure

The veil of hopelessness flutters over my eyes

The future obscured

 

But then I open Your Word

And the sun rises

A shaft of light piercing like a knife

Cutting through the mist

That my feelings threw up

 

You never promised that I would be pain free

But You said that You would always comfort me

You never promised that I would never feel alone

But You promised that I never would be

You never promised that I would always know the plan

But You promised that Your plan is always good

 

I reach out in the darkness

And though I still feel

This gaping void around me

I know that You are with me

A candle flickers to life in my heart

A certain knowledge that empowers me

The knowledge that this feeling,

This stage of life

Will end

The Storm Inside

The storm whipped up around me

Swirling up bitter winds and biting rains

As I shivered in its centre

A fiercer storm awoke in me

 

It accelerated far quicker than the outer

Gathering angry, black clouds

Staining the blue skies of my heart

Like charcoal on a white dress

 

Fear began to build in the atmosphere

And let rip with large roars of thunder

Discharging panic through me

Like lightning rippling through the frantic air

 

Through it all You waited

Waited for me to trust You

As my worries like a whisk

Kept my inner storm spinning

 

I cried out and thunder stopped to listen

The lightning froze in its path

I won’t carry this burden any more

I won’t let what I can’t control steal my peace

 

The winds began to drop

Calm descended from above

As You dealt with the storm outside

Inside I could see the blue skies

Shining through again

 

In the Battle

Lift up your head

Though the battle rages

And an army approaches

Do not let fear darken your heart

 

See the light piercing through the cloud

Know that I am here

Though you wield sword and shield

It is I who will fight this battle

 

As the footsteps thud down

Like drums of impending doom

Tune into My song in your heart

Let its peaceful tune echo inside

 

Let the words of love flow through you

Know that I am committed to you

That even in your darkest moments

I will not leave you

 

Let that be the sound

That rings in your ears

As you make your advance forward

As you face up to another battle

Burdens

I dragged my burdens

Up the wicked slope

Bitter words sprouting from my mouth

Darkness gathering in my heart

 

I ignored the offer of help

Though my knuckles were white

And my bones cracked like a whip

My pride was far too stubborn

 

Such foolishness

To plough on alone

When You are always there

To carry me when I fall

 

I let go of the reins

And put my trust in You

When the world becomes too much

Out to You will I cry

 

When I feel the burden pulling me down

I will slip to the floor

Down to my knees

And give it up to You

Waiting Here For You

Life has passed by in a blur

Like a comic book the days flick past

They merge into a single motion; the colours intermingling

The brilliant oranges, the fiery reds

The murky browns and the shadowy blacks

All splattered on the pages, telling my story

Reminding me of the intricate fabric that makes up my life

There have been good times and there have been bad times

But at all times I wait for You

 

Life has so many phases

It’s like changing trains

The hustle and bustle and the flustered face as you try to find your seat

The cold, unfamiliar eyes that stare back at you

Life refuses to stay constant

Like a restless child, it can’t stay still for a second

It shakes the foundations underneath your feet

And all that you were used to falls away

But at all times I wait for You

 

And yet life can feel so static

Like you stuck in a frozen frame

Like the track is stuck on repeat

Monotony has stripped everything down to grey

Like damp paint peeling from the walls

Everywhere you look you see mirrors,

The same, pale reflection of life in every one

You search for meaning behind what you do

And the answer disappoints

What happened to the adventures of life?

The wild explorations and the sudden surprises

It can be so easy to become discontent

But at all times I wait for You

 

Dark days

They punctuate life at various intervals

Like daggers piercing the skyline; they take up the view

The sun dims and the clouds seem darker and thicker than before

The way you look at life changes

You realise that pain could be around every corner

Life doesn’t seem as stable

It is easy to let the dark, whispering mists occlude your view

To let them blind you from the truth

But at all times I wait for You

 

I don’t know what is on the next page of life

I don’t know how it will all unfold

But I know that You do

And I know that You will lead me

That is why I wait

Though the colours are still mixed

The bright amongst dark

I know that at the end You will wipe every tear

And only the good will remain